I started the minute he left for work that morning having mentally practiced all the steps the night before while he was sleeping.
I dressed quickly and then dressed the baby and put her in her carrier.
Shaking and weak, but determined, I slid into the drivers seat of the car.
As I drove thru the neighborhood towards the highway I talked to my 10 day old baby daughter who was safely buckled into her carseat in the back. I wasn't supposed to be driving yet and I wondered... what would my mom say when she found out ? What would my husband say ?
I continued to talk to my daughter, feeling more confident as I drove. "We can do this" I told her. I wanted to surprise him. He was graduating in six months and I wanted him to have a college ring. I had been saving for months. As we pulled into the University Co-op parking lot I panicked ... realizing I did not know how to open her new stroller...all of these new steps, new gadgets, all of this planning that was required just to go to the store with a new baby...
and I had thought nothing was going to change..... just because I had a baby.
That was 18 years and 2 ring sizes ago....
4 comments:
things certainly do change w/ children....things are so different. good different, bad different. but definately NOt the same! :)
how I remember those days...we have a 14 year gap between child 3 and 4...when I took him for his first doctor's visit, they called out the name Daniel and Daniel was called out once more....I had gone so many years without baby that I didn't realize that was us.....and daniel was my new sweet baby....nice post..thank you for bringing back a wonderful time in my life....
I love the way you write, I love this story of love!
What a great post! OH I remember the first time driving with my baby. EEK! You wrote that so well.
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